Thursday, December 23, 2010

We're Playing BAS-KET-BALL...

Kurtis Blow - Basketball

So, this is gonna be short and sweet. Basketball is my favorite sport, I like the way they dribble up and down the court.

Kurtis Blow knew what he was talking about!

The past two days of boot camp have been AMAZING. I have pushed myself HARD in preparation of both the Holiday feasts about to be eaten and also just because...I'm COMPETING! I love it. I can't help it.

I have SO much to say but honestly I have way too much to do. My mother will be here tomorrow morning. One more day of boot camp left before the break. A bunch of the girls are going to get together and do some Zumba and basketball (which we all learned that we LOVE in BC) over the break so it should be a good time! I know I am going to have to get some extra work outs will be trying but ...I can't lose what I've come so far to gain! =) Or is it ...I can't gain when I've come so far to lose? Eh, either way, you get the point!

Sidebar: I MADE MY CHRISTMAS GOAL! I actually made it yesterday but I'm not going to update until my official weigh-in day of Monday because honestly? I think I may gain over the weekend. Well no I don't. I trust myself but my weigh-in day is specific and it needs to stay that way. I'll be happy to just maintain!

Studies say that everyone gains 5-15 lbs between Thanksgiving and New Years Eve....ummm I am SO not going to be part of that statistic...Let's keep it moving guys! HEALTHY INTO THE NEW YEAR!!!


On a side note: I wanna say congrats to my girl Ro - you are doing amazing! Keep up the hard work, it is paying off for your health in the long run and I am just SO proud of you man!

Also, to all of you who read my blog...may your Christmas's be BRIGHT as all get out and may you enjoy your time with family and friends and LOVE. During this time of year, gifts mean nothing to me. Just love. And it's so weird because when I was little I used to screammmmmmmm at my mom (def not my dad haha) and stomp to my room when I didn't get what I wanted or ENOUGH of what I wanted. I was such a freaking brat! Anyway, the moral of this story is, you can grow and change. Today I love nothing more than giving and watching people's expressions. I love my family beyond belief. I seriously...I can't even put it into words...everything I do (including this blog and losing weight) is FOR them and BECAUSE of them. I adore them. Sooooooooooo

I hope you share LOVE, LAUGHTER and TIME with your family this season. RELISH it, you never know when it is time to say goodbye.

May God Bless you alllllllllllllll!


ps. if you haven't bought Mariah Carey's Merry Christmas II You CD yet ..umm what the heck are you waiting for?! You need to start playing it NOW, or come to my hood and I'm sure you'll see me somewhere with the windows rolled down BLARING it for the world to hear!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

I Can NOT Tell a Lie

This is going to be very short and sweet.

Yes I went to boot camp this morning. No I did not end up going last night, that is why you should always work out in the morning! You never know what your day is going to turn into!

and lastly...I cannot tell a lie. I am petrified of what this Christmas season is going to bring. Food upon more food and I do NOT want to gain. I think I'll be satisfied if I just maintain. I can say all I want that I'm going to work out 20-30 minutes a day on my own but without boot camp to hold me accountable...I'm not sure I've reached that level yet. I mean, my MOM is coming! We have so much to do...and she's bringing my favorite pizza EVER..not to mention my favorite sandwich EVER. UGH

I am scared. However, I do not drink alcohol anymore, I don't even want to. I drink only water and milk for protein and I know that eating in moderation is key. I also know that it is okay to indulge as long as I hold myself accountable and make sure there is a good mix of healthy stuff in there too. I am going to take these three things and try my hardest to make it through until this season is gone!


Monday, December 20, 2010

Monday Week 18 Weigh-In!

Good Morning!!!

I have a confession to make. I totally did not go to boot camp this morning and instead I'm opting for the 7pm class tonight. I still gotta go and get the work out, I just needed SLEEP this morning. No excuses, back in it tonight at 7pm and then up tomorrow morning at 5:30am to do it all over again!

My mom comes into town Friday and I am SUPER stoked. It's going to be a wonderful Christmas! She will be the first in my family (besides D and his fam) to see the "new" me in person! 43lbs lighter!

That's right! This week I dropped 3.2lbs! That is what happens when you go to boot camp EVERY DAY of the week and eat right! I had NO slip ups last week.

I am hoping to get down to my Christmas goal weight by Saturday. I am literally 1.4lbs away from it, so wish me luck!

Moving on...I am scared about the feasts and treats this season. So far, SO good. However, I gotta remember, ALL in moderation and truly, ANY loss is a GOOD loss.

Until tomorrow,


ps. Ice skating Saturday was awesome! I almost began to cry as soon as I stepped foot on the ice because I just didn't FEEL like I could do it. I felt awkward and unsteady and I just kept psyching myself out. Thinking I would fall...knowing I would fall so I told F that I couldn't do it and turned to go. Of course she says, "Just go around once, hold on to the edges, just to say you did it". So I do this and once again I decide to keep going. Ended up going around about a total of 5x and helping a little girl get around too.

I am going to KEEP pushing myself to do things that make me uncomfortable because I CAN do things that I never thought I could, or that I always said I would. The greatest part is knowing that even outside of boot camp, the girls from it, especially F! motivate me and continue to show me how completely awesome I am. =)

Friday, December 17, 2010

New Year! New You!! YAY!!!

Hello Everyone!

So let me first apologize for not updating since Tuesday! I would like to put all fears to rest, YES! I went to boot camp every day this week! Busted my ass so bad I sprained a muscle but still went and worked out. Feels GREAT. My leg is feeling a bit better today.

We had a boxing day today and I think I'm finally getting the hang of it, after W took some one on one time with me today to explain a few things. I have a hard time with balance and I've been working on my core strength a lot to build that up.

Soooo here's the rub! This week is the week our 8 week Challenge Kick-off was announced! How excited am I? Pretty damn excited! It all begins January 8th 2011!

Not only will there be a 1st, 2nd and 3rd prize winner (with awesome prizes) but he is also doing superlatives. Ya'll KNOW I love superlatives, well if you didn't know, now ya know!

The greatest part about the entire program he is creating for the new year 8 week New Year New You Challenge is the fact that it is going to push me to my limit. I am a competitive person by nature and now that I believe in myself, I TRUST I am going to win or place 1st or 2nd. (If I place 3rd I'll be okay too). See, I say this, and then if I don't place I'll have to back down. LOL Oh well!

F and I already have a breakfast date set up for tomorrow to discuss our game plan! HAHA, we are going to rock it. Or at least try really hard. The worse that can happen is we don't win but yet we still lose weight and gain muscle!

For more info on the 8 week challenge, ESPECIALLY for all you Jersey City/NYC ladies, check it out here: New Year! New You!

With that said, I am off to enjoy my weekend!

Doing a bit of breakfast in the morning with F and then we are heading to ice skate. Should be interesting seeing as how I haven't ice skated since I was what? 12? Hence the reason we are going EARLY. Hopefully the ice won't be packed. It will be a nice work out for my legs too. =)

On a side note, today looking in the mirror at boxing, I noticed I am FINALLY getting what resembles a butt. It may be small but at least it is shaping...I can't wait to see what a year in boot camp will do to it. I cannot BELIEVE it is about to be 2011!! Insane! I'm SO glad I started cultivating my beach body before the summer. =)

I won't have a six pack by THIS summer, but I should be at goal weight by this summer and then it will be time to start working on complete toning and a six pack for 2012!!


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Week 17 - Weigh-In!

Hello lovely people!

So upon returning from boot camp I was feeling GOOD. Played a lil Fabulous "Girl you be killin em, you be killen em" and pumped myself up in this horrid weather!

I couldn't believe it when I walked out to my car and saw the snow covering the windows. The old me would have turned right back around and gone inside to go back to sleep. The new me knew I had to go to boot camp. My healthy lifestyle isn't going to happen on it's own so I went! Had a great work out and now I'm here to tell you my weigh-in!

It is OFFICIAL!!! I lost 1.2lbs for a total loss of 40lbs in 17 weeks! In 3 1/2 months I have lost 40lbs. I can tell that the more weight I lose, the harder it is getting to get those big numbers so I a overall pleased with this past weeks loss.

This blog is gonna be a short one. Promise I'll write more tomorrow! Including the smoking blog I've been talking about!


Friday, December 10, 2010

Friday - Boxing! Ummm...Can I Just Pull Hair Instead?

Hello my lovely readers!

It is Friday and I hope you guys are ready for a fun filled weekend full of ...well, whatever it is you like to do on your weekends! I for one let my body rest and spend time with the man but this weekend we have a game show audition...Yes really. We always talk shit when watching this particular show, you know the typical "Oh wtf!!! We could SO do that!" or "Once we reach 50G's LEAVE, they are SO STUPID to keep going!" Anyway, I decided I feel confident enough in my endurance and fitness level (and the way I would look) to try out. D actually agreed to audition with me! He has high doubts that we'll make it but ya'll know me, I don't doubt myself. If we do, GREAT...I'm seriously getting to 50k and stopping...if we don't...Oh well! I work in TV so I'm not jaded. I know how it works!

Moving on, today was a boxing day and can I just state for the record, I HATE BOXING! I would rather just pull someone's hair and bite the fuck out of them until they are reaching to stop me from biting and then slam their head in the ground. I know, harsh...but I mean REALLY?! All of that punching wears me out. Hopefully I can get my arms in tip top shape so that I don't find punching such a chore. My jaw on the other hand has plenty of strength (from eating?) and I'm guessing I could bite someone for hours if they messed with me. =) Laugh, I'm joking! (sort of)

Anyway, we were all discussing how crazy we look in boot camp. I wish you could see us. Hair not combed, just water brushed over our faces, sweaty, no make up...just hot messes. I actually think we all look pretty good for getting up at 5:30am and running all around and punching out bags (and each other). It is funny to see us all dressed up though. That is why I love our mixers. One night we get to get all dressed up and see each other as normal beings and not super mutants. =)

Yesterday one of the girls from BC, F, sent me a GREAT link! It is all about how much endurance or muscle strength you lose if you stop working out. So, say you gained 50% of muscle strength while working out for 2 months. If you stop exercising, you'll lose 50% of the muscle you gained in 2 months or less. Stop for 4 months and you'll lose ALL of it. Crazy right? Check out this link: Fitness Bandwagon . It really is a GREAT read. I recommend reading it while eating your lunch. Maybe you'll wanna get up afterward and do some stand up-kick outs (Do em for me, I despise them with a passion!).

I found some other great articles on smokers who exercise and will definitely touch on that next week as that is a subject that deserves it's own blog. If you smoke and exercise...well let's just say that blog will be for you...and me!

I also received the most AMAZING e-mail ever this morning. A woman, L, who used to be in our 6:45am session (and now goes to 5:45am) e-mailed me to say she was up this morning and reading my blog. She said the day that I came to boot camp and (i wrote about this) F grabbed my hand to pull me along and she called out my name and told me to keep going and I DID, that was the day she realized boot camp wasn't just about being in shape...well wait, her exact words were "not just for the great workouts, but for the unsolicited support of women going through the same thing you are". That right there sums it up for me.

When it happened, F thought I would think she was too overbearing. L didn't know me from any other person on the street. I was a complete stranger to these women and yet they saw me struggling and THEY alone made me want to push forward. If complete strangers believe in can believe in yourself. Trust.

and with that...I'm off!

Love you guys all SO MUCH. And if any of you are in the Jersey City area and want to try out our boot camp for free, next week is bring a friend week! I'd love to be your host and bring ya in to try it out! Make those New Year resolutions NOW and STICK WITH THEM!


Sidebar: My testimonial went up on the boot camp website yesterday! Check it out here: Boot Camp Testimonial. I am the second one down. Although I am not at goal yet, I plan on getting there =) and once there I will definitely do an updated testimonial. I cannot testify enough! haha.

love ya!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I'm So Beautiful and He Tells Me Everyday!

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

So apparently, I'm amazing just the way I am. =) That's kind of an awesome feeling to know that. least to D. He's seriously my heart and soul. Except...something happened a few weeks ago that really changed the way I view my life.

When I first started this journey yeah yeah, it was totally to "get healthy", "be skinny" "look good for my man" all that jazz but now, it is SO much more. A few weeks ago I realized I truly AM NOT doing this for ANYONE. Not D, not my family...NO ONE. I'm doing it for myself. When I see the way my body is shaping up, muscles sticking out that have never seen the light of day...those things are FOR ME. I'm probably the only one in the world who notices them. I mean, I literally was just sitting at my desk touching my arm and I could feel...dare I say it? A muscle. Yes it is there! Even if all you see is fat, all I see and feel is muscle!

Anyway, with that said, I would just like to state for the record, unequivocally...I am doing this for ME. I am LOVING getting in shape. I am dying to see what my body looks like when my fat percentage is normal. For the first time since starting boot camp, I truly believe what our trainer always says.."Everyone has a six pack underneath the fat". I just gotta get past all this fat to get to it...I know it is shaping up nicely with all of the work I am putting in. =)

Moving on to class today! It was a great day. It was totally hard to get out of bed but I tried to remind myself of how I feel AFTER class. What I forgot to remind myself of, is how freaking AWESOME all of the girls in the class are. I made a new mix for class (hello Mariah Carey Xmas music & Cee Lo!) and between singing our favorite verses (ps - if we can sing and exercise, we can keep pushing) and chatting it up, we exercised. A lot. Today was a pretty simple day, if boot camp can ever be considered simple. I mean, I think after Tuesdays work out, nothing can phase us for awhile.

Being with the girls of the 6:45am BC session reminds me of being a kid. High School days when you are in class doing your work but also chatting it up in between taking notes and just having a ball. Every day that I pull up to the gym, I am excited to get out and make sure my girls are there! I don't think I've ever mentioned A before. She wasn't in the cycle I started in but she has been in the last two and I'm really glad! (Hi A! I know you're reading this!) Anyway, if I miss a day she makes sure to call me out on Facebook and vice versa. It's just good people and good people are good for the soul!

Long story short, if you're questioning whether or not you should go work out, do it. Groups are always better than personal trainers. Not only do you get to meet amazing people but it is TEN times more fun!

Working out does not have to be boring. =)

sidebar: Today was a lot of free weight lifting and a few core workouts and some cardio! Did I mention my muscles? ha!

Tomorrow I'll try to be a bit more structured with the blog and name a study or two but don't kill me if I happen to want to just type whatever is on my brain.

This whole experience is so life changing. Truly. I wish you all could share with me what I feel inside. An overwhelming sense of ....purpose.


Tuesday, December 7, 2010


Hello readers!

If you're anything like me, then getting up this morning was an extreme effort. I actually laid there for about 15 minutes going over the pros and cons of getting up to go to boot camp or just waiting until work. I literally debated myself! Finally, I reluctantly rolled out of bed and got ready to go. The colder it gets, the longer it takes to warm the car up. Joy. =/

When I walked into that gym today the previous session (those girls are INSANE, they work out at 5:45am, Kill me NOW) were doing their stretches. I had NO idea what was about to happen to me. Hardest.Day.In.Awhile!

I TRULY don't think ANYONE can appreciate the workouts that W puts us through unless they experience it for themselves. It's not your average, hey let's go to the gym, do 10 minutes on the treadmill, lift weights for a bit etc etc. It's back to back, non stop, excruciatingly HARD exercises no one could think up. I am AMAZED by it all sometimes. Even seeing it before I started, I had NO idea it would be so intense until I partook in it myself.  Every last one of the ladies I work out with deserve a freaking award.

Because we have now moved indoors for winter there isn't a limitless amount of space. We are now confined to a gym (which I happen to appreciate) and so for cardio we usually warm up with laps around the gym and suicides and then focus on free weights, squats, you know the gamete of exercises...basically anything and everything you can think of and THEN some (that trainer of ours has a very creative mind)! For weeks I've been noticing I am getting faster...I sometimes hold back because it just doesn't feel right to be in front of everyone. I don't know...that's something I'm working on.

Anyway, when we do the running by the end of it I am GASPING for air, why? Because my lungs are black! I smoke! I'm insane! Who smokes at this age that is a grown ass adult?! UGH! I care about my face sooo much! I mean seriously, you should see my nightly routine of cleansing, toner, moisturizer...D thinks it cute =) Yet, I'm a walking oxymoron. Smoker who cares about her skin. Obvz not because wrinkles are going to pop up soon and EVERYWHERE! Boo!

Ah, sorry went off on a bit of a tangent. Back to boot camp. So, when I walked in I didn't know what to expect. You guessed it, CARDIO! It was nothing but straight cardio today with one little break to work out our core. IF you call that a break. We ran around that gym in all kinds of zig-zags and suicides and ugh! I'm exhausted just thinking about it!

After it was all FINALLY said and done, our trainer, W, said he doesn't think he's EVER seen a group work out that hard inside. We pushed it! We did so well he came around and gave everyone a high five LOL - TWICE! That was cool. To know we all got through something - TOGETHER. It truly felt like we were at war and were running for our lives at times LOL. I wish I could tape some of this stuff! I think I'm going to see what he thinks about having D come one day and tape us. I really want to document this journey, if for nothing else, myself.

Doing cardio today reminded me that ONE kind of exercise isn't going to get you at the fitness level I want to be at. I don't want to be JUST muscles or JUST strength or JUST have endurance. I want it all. You can have the biggest muscles in the world but not be able to run, swim or jump as fast as me. I want to tone and be fast and be able to LAST. I can accomplish the first two in time easily but the last one...I have to stop smoking if I'm going to accomplish it.

All of that cardio made me look up what it stands for and the history of it on wiki. I wanted to know who discovered it and what it does..if you're up for a good read, check out: Cardio - Aerobic Exercise Wikipedia. It's definitely an interesting read. At least to me!

Anyway, I'm off to get the rest of my day in! Did I mention, I'm SO glad I got up this morning! =)

I LOVE how I feel. =)

Monday, December 6, 2010

I Told You Give Me a Minute & I'll be Right Back... PLUS WEIGH-IN

Beyonce - Diva - This song ALWAYS gets me pumped and I tend to imagine myself singing it about weight loss and how far I've gotten rather than about selling records. =) I'm a dork.

If I ever get complacent and start to feel myself TOO MUCH, there is nothing like a quick dose of reality to put me in my place. Every month when I do my before/after pictures I see how far I've come and yet how far I have to go.

Today at boot camp I was going off about 2 hours of sleep. Exhausted, I climbed out of bed and into the cold brisk dark morning and headed to boot camp. Albeit reluctantly. It's crazy, when I'm there I'm in love. I love the girls, I love the work outs. I love pushing myself...I love to see if I can do the "challenge by choices" (These are exercises that he gives but then adds something special, like standing on one foot while doing it) and then if I can, I just am filled with overwhelming pride.

Sometimes, I get so discouraged and angry at myself if I can't do something. All it takes is a quick reminder through my blog to remind me what my first week at boot camp was like. I couldn't even BREATHE let alone finish any exercise. The great thing about BC? None of that mattered then and it doesn't matter now. I am only in contest with myself and seeing how far I've come is truly a testament to that age old saying "If I can do it, anyone can". I guarantee I could run laps around just about anyone out there. At least for ten minutes =) Ha!

It's crazy because I know I am SO hard on myself and it's only been 16 weeks! I see how far I've come but for some reason I want it all and I want it now! Luckily my head game is smarter than my heart game because I know that losing weight at an unhealthy pace is not safe for me or for my skin! So, I push all that aside and keep trucking along. Some days are great, some days are HARD, some days I don't succeed at all but overall, I am striving and that is all I can ask for.

Well it's the time you've all been waiting for! Weigh-In for week 16!

I lost 2.2lbs this week bringing my total up to 38lbs lost EXACTLY! I am thrilled with this however I wish I could just break 40lbs! Once I'm at 40lbs I will be at the halfway point and I honestly NEED that. I wonder where all of the fat went because when I look at my before and after photos...I dunno. It just reaffirms that I still have a ways to go! The goal is to get there by May 2011 but we shall see.

Okay, so picture time! Here is a picture of me BEFORE starting my journey:

This picture was taken 3 weeks after the start of boot camp. So I had lost over 10lbs by this point:
Sept 10th 2010

Sept 10th 2010

Now here are the pictures I took this morning...YES! In the same exact shirt! I think that is where I can tell the biggest difference. The arms are looser and the stomach area is looser. It looks like a completely different shirt.
December 6th 2010

December 6th 2010
And just for the heck of it, Here is a picture from this past weekend in a tighter shirt and NOT after just having sweat out my hair working out:

It's hard looking at these photos but it is definitely a reality check. If I thought I had come far, I am correct. That shirt is hanging completely off of me (which I should probably fix and get some tighter shirts in order to properly track the loss). It doesn't hug my curves or show off my shape at all! BUT it does help me see that I have to keep on pushing! 42lbs (maybe more) to go and a lot of toning needed!

Thank you for checking in and as always, your comments are MUCH appreciated! I need all the encouragement I can get. =) Hence the reason, I don't mind sharing this on Facebook with my over 600+ "friends". Who else in the WORLD would have the cojones to do that?! Eh, I'm KG bitches. I do me.


Thursday, December 2, 2010

Don't Hate Me Cause I'm Beautiful

Keri Hilson - Pretty Girl Rock - You should really play this song while reading my blog. No, seriously.

Good mornTING!!!

As many of you read in a previous blog, I've been having issues with a friend or two, whom since I've lost weight have suddenly gained shitty attitudes. These are bigger girls and I just WISH they'd see themselves in the same light as I ONCE saw them. Needless to say, they've been CUT! I just have no time to waste on people with shitty attitudes or a jealousy streak these days.Word.

So this blog is basically dedicated to ME! If you don't love yourself, who will?

But first, I will tell you...boot camp today was HARSH! My legs are like jelly mixed with peanut butter, stiff yet wobbly. They are so fucked ha!..but it feels SO GOOD! Ugh, I can't even believe the level of energy I have been putting in every single time. Today our trainer told us about a Jan-March challenge he has coming up, UM I AM SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED! More on that when the time draws near. =)  Today was a LOT LOT LOT of leg exercises while using free weights. Cardio and suicides (that I could've died during) and then MORE legs and glute exercises. If my ass isn't completely firm after another year of this I think I'll die.

Moving on...

I haven't been SKINNY since a non eating year in college when I was interning 20+ hours a week, working 30+ hours and taking 21 credits...oh and living on ramen and vodka! (still made cum laude that semester too!).

Sooo today... I feel good. I feel like I could work out everyday. I feel PRETTY!!! (It does help that my boyfriend tells me every day a million times how beautiful I am, but no, I sorta always knew it, I just lost my face in fat!). In the words of LL Cool J..."Even when I'm bragging, I'm being sincere". I think knowing you're beautiful is a powerful thing. If you feel wonderful outside, you're going to reflect that inside and to the rest of the world in other positive ways. Call it cocky, whatevz. The more I lose, the prettier I get. Can't help it. It's not my fault. By the time I'm at goal weight AND completely toned, no one will be able to penetrate my skin. It's already hard, but by then? I seriously doubt anything in the world could bother me.

I guess that makes me one of the lucky ones. My parents never called me fat. They never said I was ugly. In fact all I ever heard was how perfect I was and how I could do anything I ever set my mind to. (Boy did they get that right!). So I've never really had self esteem issues. Other issues? Sure. But the self esteem issues came ONLY when I was overweight. Sure, like any High School girl I would say things like "Ugh, I am fat!" but truthfully only because I heard others say it did I join in. I rocked whatever the hell I wanted and never felt ugly. Today at boot camp we were speaking about superlatives. HELLO! I was voted most individualistic for a reason!
15 years old with a lip piercing in small town Illinois!

Umm someone shoulda just said NO
High School!

Somewhere between college and adult-hood I became obsessed with work. I lost my flair for fashion (I grew up in the midwest, my biggest influence was the spice girls and wearing bindis/jewels all over my face and arms - Totally the only one in my school who did this - so weird!) and instead partied ALL of the time, blew money, worked and LIVED! I don't regret it AT ALL, but I do see what I would do differently if I had a second chance.

Yes yes, this blog may seem self appreciating. I guess in a sense it is. I FEEL GOOD. Working out makes me feel GREAT. Like I accomplished something that ONLY I could accomplish, because only I can make ME get out, get up and DO SOMETHING about my current health.

Remember, we are ALL beautiful. Every last one of us. Women have an inner power ALWAYS, take that to your outside as well and KNOW you are beautiful. 

So in closing..."Get yourself together, don't hate. Jealousy is the ugliest trait. I can talk about it cause I know that I'm pretty and if you know it too then ladies sing it with me! No question that this girls a ten, don't hate me cause I'm beautiful. It's not my fault so please don't trip. Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful".

If that's not motivation...I don't know WHAT is.


ps. I promise tomorrow won't be so self loving =) It's boxing day at boot camp! YAY!!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Are Those MY Legs?!

Hello readers!

Just got in from boot camp and whew! He said it was a "light" day but try telling that to my thighs and stomach muscles! The pain (NO PAIN NO GAIN!) yesterday was so bad that I had D check my entire body to look for bruises. I felt like my muscles had cracked! Well, it was BRILLIANT and IS brilliant! No matter if it is a "light" day or a "hard" day...the beauty of boot camp is, YOU are your own boss. You can choose to go through the motions or you can choose to push yourself as hard as possible.

I have a new method that has worked wonders for me to continue to break through my walls and push through the pain. I go and go and go, whether it is the ladder, push ups, tap downs, free weights, WHATEVER IT IS, I go until I feel like I'm going to throw up and I try to go FAST. Once I feel like throwing up I opt out, count to five and if I STILL feel like throwing up, I count to twenty outside and then go back in and start all over again with a new gusto. Usually after counting to 5 I am totally fine and can start again quickly. However, about twice during class I go out and count to 20 and then go back in. I'm hoping by the end of of this cycle I'll only be going out once during class. =)

As weird as it sounds, I try to feel like passing out or throwing up during each exercise lol. I figure if I'm not panting, sweating and FEELING something in every fiber of my being, I'm not doing shit. And why the hell would I pay to get a work out if I'm not going to put in the work?!

So, last night while looking at my body for bruises (Ha!) I had my leg up and was turning it...all of a sudden I saw...wait for it....MUSCLE! It was INSANE!!! D then caught me flexing in the mirror all night. I couldn't help it...I was so amazed at how my body is transforming. If my stomach wants to be the last to go, that's fine. The stubborn thing can stay round and protruding but my sides are going down and my legs are slimming and dare I say it? THEY ARE TONING! Crazy talk! If my stomach doesn't get into gear quickly it's gonna be very sad when the rest of my body is getting shown off and it is stuck underneath empire waists and sweaters!

You know, in the winter time it is all about jeans and boots and sweaters so I really hadn't paid too much attention to my legs. Except to note the fact that I can officially fit into EVERY PAIR of boots I try on and have room to spare!

They say the stomach is the last thing to go when losing weight. That's fine with me. I think I can deal with it. I'm working out NOW so that when it finally decides to go, there is a six pack underneath there waiting to shine. I know, I know, it could take a full year for that to show through. I have to lose EVERY OUNCE of fat on my body in order to show a six pack. I'm down for the challenge.

Once I am officially at goal weight then it will only be a matter of toning and tightening up my skin along with losing any additional body fat. That will be a whole other challenge (along with weight maintenance). I'm totally looking forward to it.

I don't understand people who try to lose weight without working out. I'm sorry. I don't. Sooo you wanna be skinny fat? That's so gross. Yes, I'm judging. Whatever! Why do all that hard work of eating correctly etc OH and saying "I am trying to change my lifestyle to be healthy". Well, I'm sorry to inform you but part of your health involves working out. If you can't run a mile, I'm gon' need you to try.

See? This is why I have gone on this mission. I cannot have these thoughts and not live by my own rules I set forth. I don't want to live my life being a hypocrite.

Anyway, I'm off!

Next week will be new pictures so I'm hoping to slim down significantly this week. Maybe 3 pounds? Maybe 4? What you guys don't know is my exact weight. I've never said it before...not sure I will ever but maybe. If I lose 4 pounds I will have crossed a thresh hold in my weight. 1. It will be my first goal weights halfway point 2. I will have lost more than 40lbs. 3. I will be out of the 1?0's. =) and moving into a new set of 10's!


Your comments, inspirational words and congrats mean more to me than anything in this world during the Holiday season. My life is in a REALLY great place and it is because of all of YOU. My friends, old and new and those that I have allowed to be a part of my life, Thank you for allowing ME to be part of yours.