I'm Back with a Vengeance! - And Weigh In!

Helloooooooo!!! I can't believe it's been so long since I last updated! I must say, in my defense, I was sick. When I am sick, to me, the entire world stops spinning and the most important part is me getting better. That involves a lot of google searches on my illness along with finding out that exercise is NOT okay when you are sick with what I had. Which was essentially the flu. Running in cold weather is already hard on your lungs, running in cold weather when you are sick? Huge NO NO! I could barely breathe when I tried!

I am now in the late stages and hoping it is fully gone by mid-week! Yay!!

With that said, let me fill you all in on the last week.

I stayed true to the course and ate appropriately. Could I have done better? Sure! Could I have done worse? Definitely! The one thing about this "lifestyle change" is that I don't want for anything. Okay, okay, I DO want fries. Man, I miss those fried greasy suckers! But when I think of what they do to my figure, I cringe.

I did NOT however, work out. At all since last Monday.

This week is our week OFF at boot camp. We start a new cycle (4 weeks) next Monday and I am totally stoked!! Hopeful that it will be inside and out of the cold air! So what am I going to do with myself this week off? I am going to kick up my eating habits a notch in hopes that I can lose at least 2lbs by next Monday!

I must admit, when I lost that 25lbs (okay 24.6 or whatever) I was really feeling myself! I mean, I was like damn I'm good! But in the grand scheme of things, 25lbs is 25lbs. My ultimate goal is way higher than that so I gotta keep pushing through! This is a lifetime commitment, not some fly by night thing I'm doing when I'm bored.

I do feel different when I don't exercise. I don't really like how lazy I feel...not sure if it was the sickness or me not working out but I'm willing to bet it is a combination of the two. So, with that said, I will repeat, I cannot WAIT for the next cycle of boot camp. I'm really going to try to up my game in boot camp as well. I'm even going to try to cut back on cigarettes to see if I can't increase my endurance. =)

I really wanted to join this Halloween 5k that Hoboken is putting on, the problem is I know I wouldn't do well and would only discourage myself BECAUSE OF MY SMOKING!

All in due time, one thing at a time...

Anyway, now to the part that you all are reading for!

I lost not nearly as much as I thought I SHOULD have but I think it had a lot to do with me being sick and...okay I hate excuses. I'm shutting up.

I lost .4 pounds. This isn't as bad as it could have been. It could have been way worse. I definitely could have done better everyday last week. So, this week is a new week and I am going to seize it!

This brings my total to a full and round 25lbs in 9 weeks. Not too shabby. Hopefully, this time next week I will be up to 27lbs down. Pray for me!

Love you all SO MUCH!
xo
K

I haven't checked out of the game...

Hey All!!

Thank you for checking in on me =) I'll be back tomorrow with a new wonderful blog AS LONG AS my congestion clears up! It's been really bad all week and running in the cold isn't going to help fix that. With that said, I've been on track eating wise and I should be back in boot camp tomorrow =)

Pray for a speedier recovery than I've been having please!

xo,
K

Monday Weigh In!!!

Hello all of you lovely people!

I am still under the weather so therefore this blog will probably be the shortest yet!

Friday I took off of boot camp to give my body time to recover, yet I still had a pretty busy day. Saturday I rested and Sunday I had a wedding to attend! I did....eat a piece of wedding cake! UGH! It was the smallest sliver ever and a couple bites of ice cream but I wasn't going to NOT have any. That's just not me and not how I want to live my life. ALL in MODERATION!

With that said, I still had calories left over so it didn't kill me. =)

Today at boot camp I really really did bad. I didn't feel like doing anything he told me to do. I actually hated our trainer for a few moments...for minutes...the entire hour. I was angry, sick and miserable. The cold air just amplifies it. I cannot WAIT til we are inside. If we don't go inside soon I may have to back out and do my own work outs at home. I can NOT feel this way AND work out AND go to work! Thank goodness for a day off!

With that said, here is what you've all been waiting for!

This past week I lost 2.8lbs. Not quite the 3 I was aiming for but it will do! This brings my total weight loss, 8 weeks in, to 24.6lbs. Not too shabby!

I went out this weekend and will definitely post those pics in my picture before and after thread next Monday along with the regular shots. =)

I'll also be talking more about the psyche I have been in with losing weight, clothing shopping and seeing people and how they respond to the weight loss or if they don't respond at all. My head is spinning however so I won't be doing that today.

I love you all and seriously, I'm petrified that this week I'm not going to drop anything. I don't know why but I feel like I'm gonna be stagnant this week so I HAVE to get pumped and step it up!

Tomorrow is our Boot camp's pot luck social. I'm planning on bringing some kind of wrap...maybe veggie wraps for the vegetarians and turkey wrapped in lettuce for those of us that love meat!

I know the more I lose, the more I'm going to have to strip down and count calories...I'm going to hate that.

Love you guys!!
xo,
K

Sick as a Dog...What does that even MEAN?!

So, you guessed it. I'm sick! WTF. How do I go two years without getting sick being fat and overweight and so unhealthy and then get a sore throat that is turning into a cold/flu?! The answer is beyond me.

I have a HUGE day tomorrow and really can't afford to be sick. What I also can't afford is to gain weight. Yes yes, I'm supposed to drink orange juice (ugh it's so not in my calorie intake!) and tea, and soup and all of these medicinal products but fuck me.

Right now I have soup heating up and am about to take this Cold Eeze. Apparently Cold Eeze has Zinc in it and it is supposed to help. =(

I did push through at boot camp today although I really didn't want to go and I also only rated myself a 2.8 of effort out of 5. I probably could have done better but I'm sick! It was a miracle I even went today.

Alas, tomorrow is a HUGE day for me and I'm not sure I'm going to make it to boot camp. If I am feeling better, I will definitely go. As of right now? I'm going to eat this soup and take my medicine and drink the nasty OJ and tea and then hit the bed....until I have to get up to get my eyebrows done and wash this mop of hair. =(

xo
K

Negative Nancy - AND WEIGH IN!

Unfortunately, this blog has to be done quickly. So I'm just going to touch on a few things, VERY QUICKLY.

Last night
I was unable to attend boot camp Monday morning so I made it up at the evening class (7:30pm). It was dark, rainy, windy and disgusting out. I never wanted to go to this class. I find it utterly hard to try to force yourself to do something AFTER work, which is why I chose the morning class. I still feel this way. We worked out for OVER an hour and I guess I was negative...on myself.

I stopped running because HELLO! I don't wanna fall on the slick ground and bust my ass. I'm sitting there in a class with people I've never met before and all I could think is how badly they probably thought I was doing. See, I've gotten used to my group of girls in the morning. They push me and I can help push them. I love them!

But I gotta say, one of the ladies in that evening boot camp pushed me in ways ...let's just say I'm not scared of ANY HUMAN...but she scared me into submission. I WANTED to keep going because I was frightened if I didn't she'd yell and I'd be embarassed. HA!

Anyway, needless to say, 10 hours later I was up and at em for round 2. Morning boot camp! The goose poop on the track skeeves me out. I really wish there were a cleaner environment to work out in with the same air flow, although today's air was quite cold and I didn't really enjoy that either. I'm working on being more positive and to just keep pushing through and I think I did that today.

I mentioned to the ladies that W said I was negative and they all disagreed, SO THERE! Hahahaha. But in my heart, I know I was definitely negative yesterday and probably a lot of times even in the morning boot camps. I'm DEFINITELY negative on myself.

I do have a problem though. My KNEES! They hurt, they are sore and they kill me. WTF?! I feel like an old lady. I think it HAS to be from me maybe not having all of the correct forms down when I'm doing certain exercises. I may be putting too much strain on them. I'm gonna have to start paying closer attention to that. UGH! They really are sore. =(

Weigh-In
Well, the goal this week was to lose 4lbs. Remember? But D's birthday was this past weekend and I REALLY tried...but I did eat a few bites of cake and even a mini kit kat bar. I don't starve myself and I don't totally turn myself off of things I REALLY want. I just ask myself, is it REALLY worth it, and damn it that mini kit kat bar was TOTALLY worth it. Anyway, not so bad considering I stayed on track all freaking week and pretty much this entire time. I do have to find some cool new recipes though. I think D and I are both getting tired of the same 8 meals. =/

Anyway, last week I told you guys that I had lost a total of 18.2lbs 6 weeks into my program. Well, this is 7 weeks in and I am now down another 3.6 pounds! That brings my total to 21.8 pounds in 7 weeks!

The goal was to lose 25lbs by the end of the second boot camp cycle and I am still hoping to do that. With two more weeks left, I KNOW I can do this, but I'll need all of your support like never before.

Once I've hit my mini goal of 25lbs, the next goal is 40lbs and then 50! I know you guys are wanting to see pictures and trust, I want to see them too but I want to wait until the end of boot camp like I did last time. Besides, I'm scared there isn't a noticeable difference. =(

Anyway, I'm off, I got work to dooooooo!

xo,
K

Obligations...

Due to work that can't be avoided, I will be attending boot camp in the evening today instead of this morning.

I will update my blog after that session.

xoxo,
K

Good Saturday!

Hello everyone! Sorry I've been MIA, it is D's birthday week/weekend and I have been planning away. I actually just came in from boot camp and woke him up with his favorite breakfast in bed (for me, 2 eggs & skim milk for me) and a cake with candles lit. He stumbled out giving me a grimace, he is so not a morning person. HA!

Anyway, so today was my first day at boot camp since Wednesday! Both Thursday AND Friday we were rained out!

W keeps telling me I have to push myself etc. It is hard! I felt like I was accomplishing something just by being there on a Saturday! My brain was playing tricks on my body. It's all in your mind set. I quickly let go of that and then pushed through.

I'm noticing major changes in my body. I am actually getting somewhat of a figure...it would be great to go out and purchase a ton of new clothes that fit me correctly because everything I own now is baggy. The problem with that is, what happens in a month or two months from now when I've lost even more? I know I'm going to have to give in eventually but usually when I buy new clothes after dropping a few pounds, I feel so good and confident in them that I quickly go back to my old habits thinking somehow Iad  won't gain the weight back. I'm not even gonna play myself this time.

In boot camp, we had to do these awful coordination things. I don't even know what to call them. They were on this ladder that I despise, basically quick feet movement. W said I was light on my feet, funny! All I could think was that I felt SO fat. And honestly, the past few days I've been feeling lighter and lighter, UNTIL I get around all the other women who are breezing through the obstacles.

One last thing before I go off to enjoy the day with my love...I HAVE KNEES. I dunno why but I'm like THRILLED with this. I've always had nice legs, or so I always thought. Besides the fact that they are pale....but over the past year my knees were harder and harder to see. I can SEE THEM! There is BONE there...and I can feel where my body has gotten firmer and firmer. I really need to work my inner thighs though. Those aren't nearly as tight as they should be in my opinion. But then again, neither is my ass. (upon re-reading this, that doesn't sound right, but I mean FIRM...like high and FIRM...not tight..where it concerns my buttocks. K? I hope you get it...).

Moving on....

I'm gonna keep pushing through. This weekend is going to be hard. I already told D that he had to eat ALL of his cake because I just can't risk it. I'm trying to push myself this week and get over the hurdle of losing only 1-2 pounds. I'm really hoping I can do it!

I'll let ya know if I fall, if I do, I'll tell you one thing...I won't binge. I will go back to maintaining.

Love you all!

xo,
K

ps. If you still haven't heard Mariah's new Christmas song "Oh Santa", LISTEN to it! Download it! AMAZINGNESS! Or..just catch me cruisin by blaring it (while D sits embarassed) all October/November/December and well into January. =)