Negative Nancy - AND WEIGH IN!

Unfortunately, this blog has to be done quickly. So I'm just going to touch on a few things, VERY QUICKLY.

Last night
I was unable to attend boot camp Monday morning so I made it up at the evening class (7:30pm). It was dark, rainy, windy and disgusting out. I never wanted to go to this class. I find it utterly hard to try to force yourself to do something AFTER work, which is why I chose the morning class. I still feel this way. We worked out for OVER an hour and I guess I was negative...on myself.

I stopped running because HELLO! I don't wanna fall on the slick ground and bust my ass. I'm sitting there in a class with people I've never met before and all I could think is how badly they probably thought I was doing. See, I've gotten used to my group of girls in the morning. They push me and I can help push them. I love them!

But I gotta say, one of the ladies in that evening boot camp pushed me in ways ...let's just say I'm not scared of ANY HUMAN...but she scared me into submission. I WANTED to keep going because I was frightened if I didn't she'd yell and I'd be embarassed. HA!

Anyway, needless to say, 10 hours later I was up and at em for round 2. Morning boot camp! The goose poop on the track skeeves me out. I really wish there were a cleaner environment to work out in with the same air flow, although today's air was quite cold and I didn't really enjoy that either. I'm working on being more positive and to just keep pushing through and I think I did that today.

I mentioned to the ladies that W said I was negative and they all disagreed, SO THERE! Hahahaha. But in my heart, I know I was definitely negative yesterday and probably a lot of times even in the morning boot camps. I'm DEFINITELY negative on myself.

I do have a problem though. My KNEES! They hurt, they are sore and they kill me. WTF?! I feel like an old lady. I think it HAS to be from me maybe not having all of the correct forms down when I'm doing certain exercises. I may be putting too much strain on them. I'm gonna have to start paying closer attention to that. UGH! They really are sore. =(

Weigh-In
Well, the goal this week was to lose 4lbs. Remember? But D's birthday was this past weekend and I REALLY tried...but I did eat a few bites of cake and even a mini kit kat bar. I don't starve myself and I don't totally turn myself off of things I REALLY want. I just ask myself, is it REALLY worth it, and damn it that mini kit kat bar was TOTALLY worth it. Anyway, not so bad considering I stayed on track all freaking week and pretty much this entire time. I do have to find some cool new recipes though. I think D and I are both getting tired of the same 8 meals. =/

Anyway, last week I told you guys that I had lost a total of 18.2lbs 6 weeks into my program. Well, this is 7 weeks in and I am now down another 3.6 pounds! That brings my total to 21.8 pounds in 7 weeks!

The goal was to lose 25lbs by the end of the second boot camp cycle and I am still hoping to do that. With two more weeks left, I KNOW I can do this, but I'll need all of your support like never before.

Once I've hit my mini goal of 25lbs, the next goal is 40lbs and then 50! I know you guys are wanting to see pictures and trust, I want to see them too but I want to wait until the end of boot camp like I did last time. Besides, I'm scared there isn't a noticeable difference. =(

Anyway, I'm off, I got work to dooooooo!

xo,
K