Upon waking up this morning I think I hit the 5 minute snooze a total of 4 times. I FINALLY pried myself from D's grip and got out of bed, albeit bitter and reluctantly. Ten minutes later, I'm FALLING, FALLING, GRASPING air, FALLING and then BOOM. Hit my ass in the shower. WORST.MORNING.EVER. Luckily I'm not bruised and I did not bust my head open (just missed the water spout). I think it was probably the longest fall of my life because I kept almost standing up and yet couldn't quite wake up enough to steady myself. LOL. Now that I think about it I can laugh and figured I'd share it with all of you...but damn, it sucked at the time. It was at that moment that I realized this was NOT going to be a good morning.
Then, wouldn't you know it, I heard the garbage truck outside. This stupid garbage truck blocks my way for about 10 minutes if I don't get out in time to go in front of it, I THREW on my clothes faster than fast and jetted out the door....forgetting my face mask! BRISK air hit my lungs and I was ready to throw up. Anyway, I made it to the car and JUST pulled out in front of the garbage man. WOOHOO for wins! Yet and still, I was in no way, shape or form ready for what was about to hit me at boot camp and I almost turned around and went home just thinking about it.
The air downtown is COLD and without my face mask I was left to the brutal winter winds and their force had me at mercy. We started off with a run and it was pretty great because I ran the entire way (yay for not smoking before boot camp!). We then came back, and all of a sudden he wanted us to do sprint after sprint after sprint. It was at this point I realized today was a cardio day and wanted to die. Anyway, I went out to dinner last night with friends at the Cheesecake Factory (and still stayed within my calories, cept for a few bites of carrot cake!) and I knew I had to work that cake off! So I did it. Next up was core exercises.
W said that we have to have a strong core in order to run. Interesting, I never knew that. W had a talk with me about pushing through the burn. I explained to him that was an issue for me. I try and try but sometimes I just don't feel like it. I can't figure out HOW to break down that wall. I try to remember the feelings I have when I DO push through it but it doesn't help. I don't know why it happens when it does, but I really wish I could figure it out. I WANT to push through and get to the next level but something is holding me back.
He also said something that...hmmm I guess I could say it is funny to play it off because of course it's easier to view myself as an imbecile rather than actually GOOD at this stuff being I've never worked out before. He said that he could tell I was athletic. Meaning, he thought I had an athlete in me. I told him how all of my family played sports and everyone was actually REALLY good at it, but I just went a different route. He gave me compliments saying how far I've come and that I really do have it in me. Of course I told him he was bullshitting me to get me to push through...but I really WANT to believe him. He says he doesn't bullshit so I DO believe that...eh, I guess it's just easier to believe that you aren't goin to be great at something you've never done before. I WANT to be at a ten and I feel like I'm at a 6. How the HELL do I break through!!!
I think all of this cold weather is really getting to me!
This morning, Y told us she has officially lost 34 lbs since she joined boot camp! I think she's been in it for 4 months or so! That is SO amazing! You should see this girl! She has asthma and yet she is running and going for it (and doing Zumba on the weekends too)! It just made me so happy to hear that!
Then, F told us as of this weekend she has officially lost 70lbs since January! AMAZINGNESS! This girl does boot camp 5x a week AND pilates and sometimes I believe yoga as well! It's just amazing what we women can do when really set our minds to it.
These women are my heroes and motivation. Everyday I see them I know that I can do it and they are there smiling and pushing me through til the end.
Now for weigh-in! This week I lost 3.2 lbs!! Which brings my total weight loss to 28.6 pounds! I'm hoping to reach at least 30 by next weeks weigh in! If I can do this, with all of my ignorance and learning as I go...ANYONE can. I have never in my life ran this much (okay maybe when I was a kid) or spent this much time doing weight exercises OR ate this healthy. The great this is, I don't miss out on much. If I know I want something sweet, I make room for it in my daily intake and then make up for it the next day at boot camp. =)
Here are the before and after pictures. I'm hoping you notice some sort of difference lol
|Front - Mid September|
|Side - Mid September|
|Nov 1st 2010 - Front|
|Nov 1st 2010 - Side|
This is VERY hard for me to post but I know I've been promising them. This is me un-altered, No sucking in, no special poses...in fact probably the worst stance for any "fat" girl. Anyway, I hope ya'll enjoyed em cuz I sure don't! LOL
I truly don't know if anyone can understand how hard it is to put all of this out here...let it all hang out if you will. I do it because I trusted that my friends/family/people in general would be supportive and help motivate me and keep me accountable. Also, for those of you also struggling with weight loss. For the most part, I was correct. But it doesn't make it any easier. =)