So yesterday I read that "The Situation" from MTV's "Jersey Shore" is set to make 5 million big ones this year! All because of his body, okay and the fact that he's a total doucher. Lord have mercy on ALL of our souls if this is the kind of dude that can become an overnight millionaire while millions struggle.
I had a different kind of struggle today. Before any of you read on, let me just state "THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE PRETTY". In fact, if you know me and you know my bitchy side, this blog is going to be down right nasty.
I am angry. Today was hard. It was hard mainly because my body let me down this morning. I officially have shin splints. The pain was ROARING up through my shin and into my entire head and my brain kept telling me to stop stop stop. So I did. I'd say out of the hour workout I probably got about 25 minutes total of what I USUALLY get. That's not to say I didn't get exercise or anything but overall it was pretty shitty compared to yesterday.
I love bootcamp but I think this may be where a personal trainer comes in handy. We had an overflow of girls from the 5:45am class in our 6:45am class and there was no way W could pay too much attention to me. This is where it got bad.
I was angry. Angry that I wasn't being given any alternative exercises.
The girls were running, I couldn't run without a shooting pain so instead I walked.
The girls were running up and down stairs. I couldn't run up and down stairs so instead I jogged in place.
Girls went running again, I walked.
It was SO horrid. I mean, seriously. I know my writing is all over the place today but I am SO ANGRY! Have I said that enough?
I know this isn't the typical "YAY You can do it"! blog that I usually have but seriously, today I am just over it.
Now don't get me wrong, I am not going to stop. I'm about to look up everything I can find on shin splints and do whatever I can to make them better. I literally thought my bone was about to pop out until L told me that can't happen. Ha!
I guess the moral of the lesson? If you're out of shape, don't wait to get in shape. Nothing is holding you back from leaving your house and going for a walk. I have waited so long that it's going to take awhile before I am used to all of the repercussions of treating your body badly. I deserve it in all honesty and as I write this, I find myself letting go of some of the anger I had earlier and accepting fate. I can't give up.
I have one year. One year to get in shape and make sure I know how to fix my body when it needs fixing. And Lord knows, I am trying. My daddy always said "Never say TRY, just DO IT". I mean he would say that when talking about anything! Even when he used to make us finish every last morsel of food on our plate, there was no try involved. We knew we either did it, or dealt with the consequences. In this case, I'm taking his advice and just going to do it.
On a brighter note, I'll be posting a recipe everyday this week or a lunch suggestion for something quick and easy for those of us who are always on the go! Like I said, I'm no genius but I do read a lot and know what is working for me. I also know that 10 times out of 10, turkey meat is always better than beef.
Look for the recipe up later today!
I'm going to go sulk now. =p Okay Okay. No, I'm totally going to turn on Hero by Mariah and play it until I believe it.